Wow, looking back at my life the one thing I would never go back to would be the times I had my heart broken. Those on and off break-ups, man did those suck! My baby girl (who is 16) came to me 4 days ago and asked "can you come and lay down with me?" I could see that she had been crying, and when I asked her what was wrong she said that she didn't want to talk about it right now and that she just wanted me to lay with her on her bed till she fell asleep. So I did, and it brought back those memories of when she was little and would crawl into my bed when she had a bad dream, or when I would just go and pick her up from her bed and bring her into mine, how I miss those days. I loved the fact that we would cuddle, our little bond. So on Tuesday as I lay with her my heart ached because I knew she was hurting (not sure of the reason) but I just wanted to take that hurt away. I left her room when she fell asleep, still wondering what was going on in her life. Nothing was said the next morning aout the previous night (sigh) ok no problem, she knows I am there for when she needs me.
Wednesday night she comes to me and tells me that her and her boyfriend of 2 years (who lives in Arizona) have been argruing alot lately and she said it was for stupid things. Again she was crying so I just held her and told her that everything would be ok. I tried to reassure her that all loves come and go and that no matter how old she is Love is going to hurt when the relationship is over. I also told her that she would survive without him even though she thinks that she cannot, I am a prime example of survival, so if I could do it so can she. Not to mention she is part of me so of course she will survive.
Again last night she wanted me to lay with her, so I did and I told her that I wish I could take her heart and sew it back together, this time with stronger thread so that it would never break.
She mentioned that she has tried to call him but that he is not returning his calls. I know that it is hard not to make those calls but I told her that she has to stop or she will drive herself crazy!
We lay in silence for half an hour, (I am holding her soft puggy little hand) when she in a soft voice says "I Love you Mommy", of course my tears start coming down, and all I can say before my voice cracks is " I love you too baby girl". She will never know how much that moment meant to me and that I will treasure that moment forever.
She is going to a birthday party tonight so I hope that her friends can keep her mind off of this boy if only for a little while.
But yes I hate to see her like this, I just hope that it doesn't take her a long time to get over this guy. I am guessing that he has someone over there he is seeing, but I will never tell her that! I will just cross my fingers that she bounces back to her normal happy self. She also told me that she is never leaving home, in my head I said YES!!! But we all know that it will happen, I just hope it's like in 10 years,lol