I come from a big family of aunts, uncles and tons of cousins. The one thing about my family is that many of them (including me) hold grudges, this bit of info comes in handy in this blog.
I have two GodChildren, a girl and a boy, the boy is also my nephew. The girl is the daughter of one of many cousins. Now the girl (Maddie) was my first GodChild, I was honored when I was asked to be her GodMother, I knew what my duties were as far as being a part of this childs life and I was willing to do whatever I had to to keep that promise.
As Godparent you are promising GOD that you will help this child believe in GOD have faith in GOD and follow the steps of GOD. I was off to a good start until Maddie's mother (my cousin) decided to pull her from visiting me. I am not sure why that was it was so long ago but never the less it hurt. I would send her gifts for her birthday, Christmas, Valentines, Easter and just because gifts and cards throughout the years. Word had it that my cousin wanted to throw everything away but people convinced her not to do so. This went on for a few years until one year I was able to see her again, oh what joy it was to see her yet sad because of the years I missed. Maddie knew then that I loved her, I would tell her everytime I talked to her and I wrote it in the cards I would send her. Then once again I couldn't see Maddie again. I think my cousin is bipolar(sp) she has a lot of anger in her too (that is the fault of her parents) She never gave me a reason but I know it had to do with my mother, I know it sounds dumb but like I said in the beginning there is a lot of us not speaking to each other for many many reasons.
But three years ago I could no longer see Maddie. Sad as it is I try not to dwell on it other wise I will cry ( I am very emotional). Just the other day my eldest daughter received a text on her phone and it was from Maddie! She was using her sisters phone. So I was able to text her back, I told her that I missed her and loved her very much, she replied that she knows I love her and that she loves me back. She mentioned that she wanted to ask her mother if I could go and visit but I told her not to because she might get repremanded for talking to me. She sent me a text photo of herself and I cannot believe how much she has grown, she will be a teen next month, boy how time flies. It made my night just to know that she does think of me just like I think of her and that she took the time to text and to let me know she is doing ok. I guess it looks like I will have to wait until she is 18 before I see her again. But that is ok, it is well worth the wait. I will take her out for lots of dinners so that we can catch up on our lost times together.